Friday, January 13, 2012

Man what a week it has been! Around 4 am on last Thursday
morning I woke up with extreme pain in my lower abdomen.
It was some of the worst pain of my life. I thought that
it would maybe go away but it didn't. So on Friday my mom
and I decided that I needed to go to the doctor. What I
thought would be just a regular appointment turned into a
day of tests at the hospital. After what seemed to be hours
of waiting the results came back that I had a large cyst
in my abdomen. When I thought that the tests were over I
found out that I would have an ultrasound the next day.
At this point I was getting really worried. All the research
that I read was pointing to the fact that I probably would
have to have surgery. After a few more appointments it was
official I had to have surgery, that afternoon! Cue the tears!
I was such a mess. After everything was said and done they
removed an almost three inch mass from my ovary. The thought
of that being in my body is crazy. Looking back I have learned
that you have to give your worries up to God because you are
in his hands. I am thankful that I had the support system that
was praying for me. I know that if I didn't have God I would
have freaked out. Thanks to everyone who was thinking and praying
for me. I am feeling a lot better and am ready to get back to
school. Have a great week! God bless.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

The Realization of Gods Blessings

I like to consider myself an optimist. Lately
I have realized how negative the world is. War,
hunger, gossip, and even self image. This has a
impact on everyone no matter how optimistic you
think you are. I have recently caught myself falling
into this pattern. Thoughts like I hate
this weather, I hate living here, I hate going to
this school. I stop myself and think at least I have
things to keep me warm, I have a home and grandparents
who love me, I have access to a free education. I have
to step back and pray that I stop thinking those thoughts.
There are plenty of places where people don't have enough
to survive on a day to day level. I pray that God continues
to show me that I really am blessed in so many ways. I also
pray that people spread Gods love to the people who have never
heard of this man named Jesus. God loves everyone more then
any human understands! Stay positive. God bless!